Why am I so angry? 

Why am I so angry?

I have been super angry over the past few weeks. I let it consume me and found myself getting crosser and crosser at life. Nothing specifically just everything made me angry.

I was grumpy

I was feeling spiteful for no reason

I was lashing out at loved ones

This isn’t me. I am not normally like this. It was just like something super invisible making me super cross.  But there was nothing on the outside that could be causing this. Yes I am a little busy but that is of my own making and would rather be busy chasing my dreams than not.  

Here is what dawned on me.. I was super angry because I had stopped listening to my soul. I was busy chasing my ‘dream’ but in a really unaligned way… so unaligned that I had gotten myself lost.   I realised that my vision for my company had been lost and it had become about getting the list done.  I was operating on autopilot and not from listening to my gut or my intuition. I had allowed myself to switch off and just go through the motion and my soul had a tantrum. Picture a toddler who wasn’t allowed the toy he wanted in the shop.. feet stamping, crying, lashing out.. all to try and communicate what they wanted as they don’t know how else to communicated. Well if you don’t listen to your soul then it is going to have to get your attention another way. I had gotten myself here because:

• I wasn’t writing which I know is my soul calling.. everyone I consult with tells me this.  
• I wasn’t creating which I know puts me directly back into alignment each and every time.  
• I wasn’t connecting with people who make my soul happy as I was too busy.  

Luckily I have been here a few times before and what I have realised is that these feelings, while very real in the moment, are just signposts to what we are abandoning in ourselves, what we are allowing to pass us by, the boundaries we are not protecting for our own wellbeing… those sort of significant things which we are here to master.  All those important things which we ignore in favour for ‘just getting it done’

So I urge you if you are out of balance right now.. perhaps angry, sad, disconnected, unsettled, lost… ask yourself what you are ignoring right now. What is your truth right in this moment. And listen. It takes practice but we ALL know the truth when we slow down, quieten the mind and listen. What small step can you take to get yourself back on track?